Showing posts with label birthday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label birthday. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 7, 2023

Twenty Years Ago: March, 2003

am reflecting on my life twenty years ago by reading my daily journals. Click here for an introduction. 

If February was busy, then March 2003 was a five-ringed circus. I didn’t sleep through the night even when I was taking nighttime cold medicine. I spent much of the month recovering from a cold. It was snowy and cold and winter got its last licks in during its final month. “I think my body is falling apart,” I wrote. 

My daughter had orthodontist and pediatrician appointments, x-rays of her adenoids and wrists, violin lessons, and a performance of the baby scene from Free to Be You and Me for a school gifted program event. She planned her birthday party and, when I questioned one name on her invitation list, I told myself to, “back off.” She brought home a hat she made at school that said her new year’s resolution was to stop yelling at her brother. She yelled at her brother? When? 

We celebrated my son’s fifth birthday with a play party at the park district. Since he was getting ready to go to kindergarten, he had a marathon of inoculations at his yearly March physical and it felt like a reward (or punishment) for recovering from all his illnesses of the prior month. 

I kept track of all my appointments on my Palm Pilot, needed to replace the phones that were installed in our cars, and watched shows recorded on VHS tape on our VCR when I worked out in the morning. 

“I am the human pinball.” Often my schedule wedged my home, school, and parenting responsibilities into a small space. I wrote about finishing class at 12:15 and rushing to volunteer at the book fair at the elementary school and then returning to the high school for an afterschool meeting, coming home and cooking dinner before leaving for Shabbat services in the evening. On the weekend, we attended the school’s musical, attended a community workshop, took my Sunday school students on a field trip, and had families over for pizza and play.

I wrote that, “School is the simple part of my life.” Yet, the more I read, the less simple school seemed. I met with the Peer Helpers in the morning, taught two or three classes a day, was assigned a new teaching partner to co-teach an integrated social studies-English class for the next year, drafted on to a “think tank” to work on the new daily schedule, and moved toward performance of our creative writing event, called Stage Write. School had a lockdown drill I said I was, “overstuffed to the max.” 

As part of our congregation’s steering committee, I attended interviews and other events to hire a rabbi. We met the man who would become our rabbi this month. He did a Shabbat service and I drove him around the area. My wife felt that we should move quickly to hire him or another congregation would snap him up! I noted that I was the youngest member of the Steering Committee. Now, I am one of the oldest and most senior! 

In the middle of the month, we declared war on Iraq because President Bush believed Saddam Husain had weapons of mass destruction. My father and I saw this very differently and had some passionate discussions about it. 

I was planning trips for spring break and the summer. My wife’s mother was struggling and required a great deal of care and attention. She had an infection, then an allergic response to the medicine for it, and the doctor struggled to locate an alternative treatment. My folks returned from a vacation, were home for a week or so and then left on another one. Once again, I watered plants, fetched mail, and got groceries for their return. 

“Running, running, running. Lots to do and little time.” I went to my professional development class, SEED several nights throughout March, tried to figure out how to grade student journals without commenting on everything; we had clogged toilets, trips to the train station (to just watch the trains go by), and several dinners at Sweet Tomatoes. 

Yet, when things slowed down occasionally, I wrote, “I love lazy and slow mornings when we can get them.” Spring break was a chance to do just that, although I reminded myself to “use it well.” 

“Spring is here and summer is quickly being planned. Zoom, zoom, zoom.”

Friday, November 22, 2019

Putting the Social in Social Network: Facebook Thanksgiving




I am aware that there are issues with Facebook. I try to stay out of the political kerfuffles, and I am freaked out when the item I just bought at the store appears in my feed. I wish that Facebook would do a better job of upholding reasonable standards of accuracy.  

But that isn’t why I am on Facebook or Instagram. That isn’t how I use it.

I am there because I love thinking of you! I want to hear about your life. I am delighted to see your posts and photos because they remind me of you. It really is that simple.

Some people talk about the massive time-wasting potential of Facebook, and I am certainly guilty of avoiding productive work by scrolling through my feed. Yet, I leave that experience feeling good. Someone has a new job. Someone’s child did something cute. Someone is having a great time on vacation. Someone posted a funny meme.

It almost doesn’t matter what you post because the words and images bring you to my mind, and that is why I am there. Even when your post is not all sun and rainbows.

Sometimes, Facebook posts help us help each other. Sometimes they are calls for support. I have learned about sad events and funerals I needed to attend through Facebook. I have been able to be a voice in the chorus of support through Facebook. I have been able to reach out through Facebook.

I understand that we get bent out of shape about far more consequential issues. They are important. We need to address them. We must examine all information, on and offline, through a critical lens. We must hold each other and our communication vehicles responsible.

But my Facebook use does not have that kind of weight. I'm here to wish people a happy birthday. I'm here because, as I have written many times before, I'm not good at letting go. The information on Facebook gives me a momentary glimpse into the lives of my former students, colleagues, friends, relatives, and people who live near and far, almost all of whom I do not get to see regularly.

A friend said to me that he thought Facebook was problematic because it provided the illusion of closeness. We get some photos or words and thus feel connected when we should really pick up the phone or go visit someone. It is a cheat and a trap. I see his point.

But I am not sure I would or could have personal contact with many of my Facebook friends. That isn’t to say I wouldn’t want to, but it is not feasible. Sometimes all I really want or need is a picture or a few words. Sometimes, I call and we go out for lunch or a walk. There is a place for both.

I love meeting up with friends. Yet, many of my Facebook relationships are not that kind. Our connection on Facebook is superficial – and that is enough. It makes me feel happy to just think of you and get a tiny window into your experience.

And for that I am very thankful.

Saturday, May 27, 2017

What I Am Thinking When I Wish You Happy Birthday on Facebook

I celebrated a birthday earlier this month. My family took me out to dinner. I got phone calls and cards. My friends at school got me lots of chocolate! It is always nice to be celebrated. I deeply appreciated how people made my birthday special.

The icing on my birthday cake were the nice greetings on Facebook. They are short, for the most part, and simple –and that is fine.  As I wrote a while ago, I enjoy getting birthday greetings on Facebook. It feels good that people thought about me and are wishing me well. Each morning, I do the same and write a birthday greeting for my Facebook friends. If I have a good picture, I might include that, too.

The truth is that my greetings, and most Facebook birthday greetings, are brief and superficial. Some of my younger Facebook friends send each other elaborate photo collages, embarrassing SnapChat captures, or long missives of devotion, but these seem to be exceptions rather than rules.

Like many people, I don’t have enough time to write a long letter to all of my friends having a birthday. Some are more acquaintances and I am not sure what I would say.

So here is what is going through my mind when I wish you happy birthday on Facebook:


Happy birthday to you! I hope today provides you an opportunity to be celebrated and fêted. I hope that, whatever your birthday wishes are, you are able to make them come true.

I am so glad that your birthday gives me a chance to communicate directly with you! Seeing your photos, liking your posts, hearing about your adventures keeps me connected to you, and I like that. If we haven’t talked in a while, know that miss that part of our friendship.  

I cannot overstate how wonderful it is to hear about your graduations, vacations, jobs, weddings, family, special events, interests, and thoughts. When I read them, I hear them in your voice, and for a while, across the distances and years, it feels like we are together.

Know that thinking of you brought me joy. Know that, although I may not have photographs of all of our shared memories, our past is very much on my mind as I write these quick little words to you. Know that I am honored to be a friend, Facebook or otherwise. Know that, although you may have several hundred (or thousand) such friends, that does not diminish the value of our relationship in any way to me.

I worry about writing the wrong thing for your birthday, so I keep it simple and standard. If I have a good picture, I might share it. If I don’t share it on this birthday, I will try to share it in the future. But when I do share it, I will worry that you won’t like the picture. If you don’t like the picture I shared, go ahead and delete it or tell me to do so. I won’t mind. I am sharing it because I don’t remember if I showed it to you before. Now you saw it.

If you wrote me a birthday greeting, thank you. If you did not, that is okay, too. Some of us don’t do that. Some of us don’t use Facebook that way. No judgment there. Don’t worry about it –and certainly no guilt, please! There is enough of that off of Facebook.

So may this be the best year ever. May this year bring you and those for whom you care health, happiness, purpose, and goodness.

And may we do it all again next year!

Live Long and Prosper,

David

Monday, May 19, 2014

Fifty Candles

In John Hughes’ teenage classic, Sixteen Candles, Molly Ringwald’s character, Samantha Baker believes that everyone has forgotten her sixteenth birthday. And while I don’t want to ignore my birthday, I am not sure that it merits a big deal. So for my fiftieth birthday, here are fifty thoughts about turning fifty, aging, and celebrating birthdays:

1. My children’s birthdays are the real big deal. Those are the birthdays that I really mark and care about. So perhaps my birthday isn’t just mine. It is my parents’.

2. I like using birthdays as a means of staying in touch. Whether by a quick Facebook acknowledgement, a card, or phone call, birthdays give me a chance to say, “I am thinking about you, and I still care!”

3. Other families have elaborate birthday rituals. My family never did – and I didn’t miss that. Some people love to be the center of attention and some do not. 

4. I don’t see my fiftieth birthday as a significant landmark. It is not that different from my forty-ninth or fifty-first birthdays. I don’t believe that fifty is the new thirty.

5. Birthday presents are not important to me. People are important to me. 

6. For the past decade or so, nature’s gift has been a cleaner head, a few more pounds, and an extra awareness of minor ailments. If that is what birthdays are, I certainly don’t need them.

7. I hear there is a colonoscopy in my future. Joy.

8. I am already a member of AARP (thanks to my wife turning fifty ahead of me) and it doesn’t bother me at all. I like the coupons and discounts.

9. Thank you for reading my blog. That is a great birthday present!

10. One of my friends dislikes Facebook because he contends that it gives us a false sense of connection. We see each other’s posts and then don’t feel the need to make “real” contact. If birthdays are a reason to make more substantive contact, that is a good thing.

11. I still think that a superficial acknowledgement of special events is better than no acknowledgment at all.

12. My English department has a birthday buddy tradition that some of my colleagues find onerous. I like being a buddy and organizing a little celebration for someone. I like when my birthday is acknowledged. When my buddy forgot one year, I was surprised how disappointed I felt.

13. I don’t believe in wishes. I believe in goals. And I don’t need candles to make them.  

14. I am terrible at acknowledging my students’ birthdays. Even when they were on the assignment sheet, I was so focused on the lesson, that the birthdays were often neglected.

15. When I do remember, I use this little song: “This is your birthday song. It isn’t very long.”

16. There is a second verse to this ditty: “This is the second verse. It’s shorter than the first.”

17. I do not feel old. I do not feel older than I did last year or the year before. I don’t remember the year before that.

18. I am occasionally surprised when I look in a mirror or see an old picture of myself.

19. When I see pictures of my parents in their thirties, forties, or fifties, I notice how young they look. However, my parents still look young. I hope those genes kick in sometime soon.

20. My children are getting older. My students are getting married and having babies. That is what aging feels like to me.

21. I am looking forward to time travel. Which means I am looking forward to going back.

22. Am I the only one who is a little grossed out eating a cake that someone has blown over?

23. I bumped into a student recently and I didn’t recognize her. I usually do. However, she looked so grown up. It was hard to see the fourteen-year-old child in the woman holding a toddler. I better get used to this.

24. Former students: when we bump into each other, tell me who you are right away, please. I will be increasingly grateful for that.

25. I can’t go on the really good rides at the amusement park any more. I can barely do roller coasters. The Superman ride is particularly bad because I feel like I am a doggie on all fours.

26. Some of my friends from school look exactly the same as I remember them. I am coming to hate that.

27. Some of my friends from school look older than I do. I think that is very polite. It is really nice when my former students look my age or older.

28. I feel like I have caught up to my former teachers and professors.

29. My first students are in their forties. We are now in very similar places in our lives. Does this shock them as much as it shocks me?

30. My former students’ children are at Deerfield High School. None has yet been in my classroom. That will be a real birthday milestone. I fear it is going to happen soon.

31. My current students are perpetually fourteen through eighteen. This gives me a false sense of time standing still.

32. I am very aware of time when I make a pop culture reference and they don’t get it. If I ask them, “Where is the beef?” or note they are getting “two mints in one,” I get nothing but blank stares.

33. The past was neither “golden” nor “good old.” I believe things are getting better. The times are not perfect, but progress is happening.

34. Biology is destiny. We can take only a small amount of credit for how we age.

35. As of next year, I will be the teacher in our school with the most seniority. And I am only fifty. Of course I started teaching when I was twelve.

36. I don’t care how old I am, or how old my children are, I love putting them to bed. 

37. I am not looking forward to having an “empty nest.” I have been told I will like it. I don’t want to.

38. The days are long. The years are short.

39. The other day, I started to say, “I have little kids.” I surprised myself. Sometimes I see my children as nearly adults. Sometimes I miss the little people they were.

40. I do want grandchildren – but not yet.

41. The only bad thing about going bald is having to wear a hat in the sun. Sunburn on the top of the scalp is unpleasant.

42. This is a special number and therefore needs no further comment.

43. I do not want to become one of those people who dwell on the past. I have met more than a few folks who constantly connect the conversation to their personal histories. Stop me if I do this.

44. Growing older is far better than the alternative.

45. My grandmother used to say, “We live too long.” She outlived all her friends and many of her friends’ children.

46. It will always be about the relationships. It is not about how we look, feel, or even think. It is about how we connect to each other.

47. I was stupid when I was younger. I made idiotic mistakes and did foolish things. I still do, but I hope I do so less frequently.

48. On the other hand,  that silly kid is still in me. He just has way less hair and moves more slowly.

49. I am grateful for birthday greetings. But don’t wait for my birthday. Don’t worry about my birthday. I will celebrate for any reason.

50. Any chance to reach out and acknowledge a friend is a good thing. I should do it more often. Sometimes, I get so caught up in the minutia of my world that I can’t see outside my borders. So if a special birthday lets me bring my head above the mundane waters, connect with the people around me, then my birthday has been a good thing.


Friday, May 24, 2013

Happy Facebook Birthday

As a child, I got birthday cards from my family. Later, a few close friends would either call or send a card. As I grew up, I could count on one hand the number of non-family members who acknowledged my birthday in any way.

Prior to the advent of Facebook, birthdays were a way to stay in touch. A birthday card to a far away friend was a way to affirm the relationship. This was also a good determiner of the whether such effort was worthwhile. Some people didn’t seem to care about such things. Whether or not they reciprocated (most did not), these cards either kept relationships alive or let me know that they were already dead.

Facebook changed all that. Now I only have to remember the birthdays of friends who are not on Facebook, and even for those people, I often send emails instead of cards. A birthday email is far more effective – and let’s face it, for many people, I don’t have much to say beyond, “happy birthday.”

So now we have a long list of simple and banal birthday greetings. Each morning, I see the names of my Facebook friends’ birthdays. I type a little greeting. Is it worth it?

Meaningful or not, Facebook birthday posts feel good. While I have heard my students discuss the number of digital birthday greetings, for me, the amount is less important than the fact that people take a few moments to reach out. This is not only gratifying, but also healthy –and it seems to work better than my old approach. 

I enjoyed my recent birthday. I loved the time with my friends and family and the warm Facebook posts. But I didn’t need any real fuss. I save fuss for my children’s birthdays. Those are far more important to me than my own birthday.

I used to hate kiddy birthday parties. The worst part was the glut of presents that the kids unwrapped and discarded. The real meaning of the celebration got lost: the gift that is the child. My children’s birthdays are a chance for me remember and renew the gratitude for the joy they bring me.

And that is why birthdays matter. Whether on Facebook, through a card, a call, or email, they are a chance to renew this kind of gratitude and joy. They are a moment on the calendar to give a long distance hug. They keep us positively connected.

Sappy as it sounds, Facebook helps keep these positive connections alive when they might have disappeared. Even if some of them are not substitutive, they make us smile. They keep us from drifting too far apart or getting too caught up in ourselves.

Birthdays are a chance to affirm relationships. And they aren’t the only chance. There are lots of ways to say, “I love you.” Birthdays are only one of them. I make a point of noting anniversaries and other special dates that Facebook doesn’t list. It would be wonderful if birthdays, or something like them, came along several times a year.

Cliché though it may be, this is a case where it really is the thought that counts. It is nice to be remembered and feel loved and appreciated. However we do it, this kind of acknowledgement keeps both the sender and receiver healthier and happier. Thanks, Facebook!